don't be angry
don't allow emotion to show
be the mediator
give everyone your everything
lose yourself in supporting everyone else
badly.
feel comfort in your failure
at the loss of what you love
and your own inept attempt to give solace
Babbling words and incoherant thoughts
hidden beneath the choppy surface
rising panic lulled to sleep with sticky clouds
fractured vison, skewed input
what is real?

one word uttered
and I fall
the clouds come, rushing through the clear sky
bringing the storm of emotion
waves rush high and recede
the eb and flow of my psyche

at times I see it and prepare
bunker down in the cellar of my mind
holding tight to my thin bars of sanity
hoping not to be swept away

others i see nothing and the wave crests over me
drowning me in feeling
crushing with the weight of depression